Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Is that a solid line or....

Well, I'm pretty sure I may have had an LH surge yesterday, but I'm not 100% positive because I cheaped out and bought the ovulation kit that shows 2 lines instead of the smiley face, and it's so damn hard to read! That was stupid. So I bought the smiley face one yesterday and when I tested myself this morning, it was negative. You can't get a positive 2 days in a row right?

If it was yesterday it was a moot point anyway since my little swimmers haven't yet arrive at my doctor's office - they are coming this morning. So if it's tomorrow (which is when I was expecting) then I am all set. Otherwise I have to wait another month.

And that's fine - I've been taking a "trust the universe" approach to this whole thing, and I really believe things will happen the way they should. It feels unnatural to me to rush things (right now anyway - I might change my tune down the road a little). A tiny part of me, that tiny part that still harbors those doubts and insecurities, is keeping me balanced in that space where if this doesn't work out, then it's ok, that means it's not the right thing for me. I'll tell you what, if nothing else comes out of this whole experience, I've really come to realize how truly blessed to have the family and friends that I do. It's so easy to take that for granted, and now it's a gift that I am reminded of everyday.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

It's ON

I got all the results of my blood work and HSG yesterday, and everything came back normal and healthy! According to my RE, "there's nothing to indicate in any of these tests that you can't get pregnant."

So, I am ready to go!! Today I place my order at the sperm bank, tomorrow I begin testing for ovulation.

I can't believe it's happening for real now!!